Thank you for making this movie. SO brave of all the participants. While I was watching I felt so understood. I just wished I could let it out like her. All those feelings, the aggression, the sadness, emptiness.... I feel the exact same, same thoughts, same pain, but internalize it and it gets stuck there. Except from periodical hidden eruptions. So nobody knows how I am feeling. Makes me physically ill and...well, I just wish I could let it out, because not being able to share your feelings is such a lonely place to be.

Thanks for the good advice Rebbie, I appreciate it. I do write. On and off. Occasionally. This is a bit weird, because its the first time ever I write on a forum (or anywhere really online, its freaking me out quite a bit). But it looked like I was here all by myself, you know like when you usually "speak your feelings into a screen". So I have to get over the shock that the screen actually answered this time.

I also want to use the opportunity to say thank you for the wonderful clips on the borderline notes on YouTube too has been such a comfort to relate to others and to hear the facts from real experts (there is too much rubbish on YouTube about BPD) that I before had only read in cold scientific articles. But here there were real people talking. During the process of watching one after the other I caught myself screaming "yes! yes! yes!" Because I don't know anybody like me and isolate quite a lot. Now I felt that somebody out there is getting it. Watching others with similar problems makes me feel less alone :)

This was uncomfortable to watch because I identified with it so much.

Thanks for sticking with it, Jason. And so appreciate your sharing your thoughts on the viewing of it. Wishing you luck going forward.

Warmly,
Rebbie

I feel the same as you Petra. I don't know what else to say you expressed it so well.. I'm sorry you feel this pain. But knowing you all exist makes me glad because I'm not the only one feeling like this... Love and hope and acceptance.

Just wanted to say thanks Rebbie for the video. It's helped me by simply validating my response to life. From the bottom of my heart, I want to strive to be the best person that I can be - whether that be going after a career I want or simply getting along with people. But every now and then whenever I face trouble, I remember various parts of this video. At times, I do feel left out in life. But this video has really taught me that there are others who are on this journey with me.

Awww... Thank you, Ryan, for sharing your thoughts. There are definitely others journeying with you, here. And my god, finding good help is a feat, so tenacity is alas, the name of the game with this. But I am grateful to your thoughts and feedback and glad the movie felt simpatico with some of your experience. Maybe it makes it feel a little less strange and lonely...

Thank you. This was a really great video and it brings so much more understanding to the world. The strength of all the people in it to be ok with having their problems out there in the world and to get on, is so hopeful and inspiring. I watched the clips on making it as well, and cannot get over the fact you finished something so good and so profound, whilst also having to deal. Your resolve to finish it is so empowering. 'Not burn bridges and not give up or terminate it, just to finish' really hit me because it's so hard to do this. I think this is my new mantra for life.

Thanks for the reply Rebbie I wasn't expecting that. You should be so proud of yourself this is really great and all the work around it not only tugs at the heartstrings but gives clear hope and guidance. I didn't realise it was perfectionism that was driving that. I thought it was the whole love / hate thing so making a commitment to see a situation through nice and cleanly, without just dropping a bomb and on the way out.

I could easily see a part II that incorporates the videos not included in the film. How people got the BPD diagnosis, how its impacted them, and their families and what the medical options are. I LOVE LOVE LOVE what Dr. Linehan had to say. I want to watch every production of her in it. <3

I wanted this because I have often wondered if I had borderline tendencies. I can say I have occasionally felt like they did in the film. However, those were on my worst days, and they were probably the best days for them.

I’m still so confused, because I was in a relationship with a person who I believed to be a narcissist, and maybe BPD too. However, I’m very empathic, and I also have very intense feelings of real and perceived abandonment.

This exploded in my face in the last relationship I was in. I was love-bombed, and treated so well I thought I found my soul mate. I’ve since read that Narcs do this, often to people with BPD. Which makes me wonder if I have BPD. I’ve certainly displayed some of those same symptoms, but only during the worst of times (i.e. on our 2nd anniversary trip, I spent a fortune to take her somewhere amazing, but I caught COVID the 2nd day we were there, and ended up in the hospital...she thought I was faking it, even though my fever was very high, and I was vomiting everywhere), at that point I just blew up at her, because she got a plane ticket to go back home and leave me there in the hospital.

I just don’t know. It seem’s to me like if I dated a narc, then maybe I must be BPD....but also it seems they have so much in common, sometimes I wonder if I’m the narc, or was...

I’m just so confused. I tried to do everything I could to save the relationship. I let her do extreme things to me, and I just figured....this is the price I have to pay to be with the person I love, it’s ok if she’s a little sick, because as long as I’m with her, it will be ok...but she just kept withholding from me, it’s like I was lucky to see her once a week, then once every two weeks, then once a month, or two months...and then when we were together everything would be perfect. I just never understood why she didn’t want that life with me all the time.

I still don’t get it. I don’t know if she was BPD or Narc or if I was, or we both were....I’m just so confused. To the point I just don’t know if I’ll ever be able to have another relationship again because I’m too filled with doubt.